Trying to Get Stuff Done
Oct. 10th, 2012 09:29 pmOrganized my closet, took a bag of stuff to the thrift store and while there, found a pair of pants to complete my aviatrix outfit.
Looked through the various "creative" job listings, and applied for three or four things before imposter syndrome kicked in. It's easier to be brazen in email - they can't actually laugh *in* my face, for a start, and I figure I'm only wasting a couple of seconds of their time instead of a half-hour. I even did 1950s-style hair and makeup on myself and had green_trilobite take a bunch of head shots so I could apply for a stylist job on a photoshoot. Unfortunately the ad asked that I name my salary expectations: on the one hand, any real stylists I looked up had a payscale that was way higher than I was comfortable asking for given my total lack of history doing makeup on anyone but myself (and the occasional fellow-performer in amateur theatre); on the other, asking less would probably give myself away as an amateur. Eventually honesty won out and I cited the hourly rate I usually get for office work. I guess the worst that can happen is that they won't respond. Actually it'd probably be scarier if they did respond and I have to keep faking it. Aargh.
ETA -- Well, I actually got a fairly nice reply that wasn't a "no," so I'm at least under consideration. : )
Looked through the various "creative" job listings, and applied for three or four things before imposter syndrome kicked in. It's easier to be brazen in email - they can't actually laugh *in* my face, for a start, and I figure I'm only wasting a couple of seconds of their time instead of a half-hour. I even did 1950s-style hair and makeup on myself and had green_trilobite take a bunch of head shots so I could apply for a stylist job on a photoshoot. Unfortunately the ad asked that I name my salary expectations: on the one hand, any real stylists I looked up had a payscale that was way higher than I was comfortable asking for given my total lack of history doing makeup on anyone but myself (and the occasional fellow-performer in amateur theatre); on the other, asking less would probably give myself away as an amateur. Eventually honesty won out and I cited the hourly rate I usually get for office work. I guess the worst that can happen is that they won't respond. Actually it'd probably be scarier if they did respond and I have to keep faking it. Aargh.
The other one shows the make-up better, but my long face looks better in profile than front-on.
Having googled "imposter syndrome," I suspect I'm misusing the term. Apparently you have to actually be successful first, and then feel like it's all a mistake.
ETA -- Well, I actually got a fairly nice reply that wasn't a "no," so I'm at least under consideration. : )