Dream Report

[moon_custafer]

Dreamt that I woke up on a bus around 4 am and realized I was on the way home from a second job I couldn’t remember doing, which probably says something about my state of mind.

Meanwhile at my waking-life job I’ve just been informed that I’ve used up all my vacation and sick days and will have to take a pay cut in order to go to my next dental appointment. At least fillings are still covered under my benefits (caps are not, so I’ve told the dentist to hold off on those until lol whenever).

Comments

[kore]

AUGH. Why is society like this.

[moon_custafer]

I know. And I’m way luckier than most, at least I (a) have a job, that (b) gives me slightly more sick days per year than the province’s Conservative government legally requires. I was hoping they’d be a bit more lenient due to the pandemic, but I hadn’t been keeping count, and since none of my sick days were claimed due to having covid I guess they still came off my total.

Also I was scolded when I got in this morning for having left two minutes early yesterday; which *was* stupid of me, and due mainly to absent-mindedness and boredom (I didn’t actually have anything left to do, and I glanced at the clock but should have stayed in my seat an extra 120 seconds in case anyone was watching).

I get simultaneously impatient with being treated this way by people, and guilt-ridden that I must be doing something to deserve being treated like an irresponsible child even though I’m forty-five. Though having done the math I’m beginning to tell myself that if my pay works out around $14/hr not counting my commute time and I have no decision-making authority of any kind, how do they expect me to behave?

[kore]

TWO MINUTES? Christ on a fucking cracker.

[moon_custafer]

The thing that’s begun to rankle is that whenever these minor objections happen, they take the form of my supervisor telling me that someone above him noticed me leave at 4:43 instead of 4:45pm, or is going to object to the fact that I hung a picture in my office* if they happen to see it; and I’ve begun to wonder whether he’s the one who objects but doesn’t want to take personal responsibility, or if his supervisors really feel that passing this kind of thing down the chain of command is a good use of his time. OTOH I never feel quite secure enough in any job to argue.

* i.e. one that isn’t one of the ones that was already there when I arrived three years ago. We didn’t have a company-branded calendar printed for 2020 last year, and I got sick of looking at the space where the 2019 calendar previously hung so I brought a small painting from home.

Arghh!

[palain-7.livejournal.com]

Even worse than the clock watching. Instead of worrying about ultra-minor office decor issues there must be a hundred other things this person could be doing.

Bossy

[palain-7.livejournal.com]

Totally textbook terrible management. Nothing is a bigger waste of everybody's time than micro-management. It's like having someone look over your shoulder while you're working at a computer going "move the cursor up with the mouse.. no higher! ... NO! You fool! Not that high!"

The two minutes you left early cost the company less than the time spent talking about it. And that 's only the direct costs.

Toothless promises

[palain-7.livejournal.com]

The whole dentistry thing is something that really disgusts me. If you have a heart attack or something all that medical care is free but if you've got a rotten tooth (which will probably cause a heart attack) then you get nothing. After you're 50 you'll start to lose teeth no matter how well you take care of them. All the serious problems that can stem from this are your personal problem unless you've got private insurance. In my case if I lose another tooth I'm screwed. We're supposed to have a public health system but by some magic your teeth aren't consider part of your health.

The dentistry association has been "studying" the issue, along with all of the technologies that could probably totally eliminate tooth decay by killing off the bacteria that cause it, for about half a century now. I think that the results of their "pondering" might fill up the back of an unused postage stamp.

[sabotabby]

Uggggh I'm sorry.