Knowing you probably suffer from imposter syndrome doesn't really help.

[moon_custafer]

I mean, I can look back and reason that I've illustrated three books, spent three years as the in-house graphic designer for a small company, and done freelance illustration/layout work for literally two decades, plus I do have actual recorded training in fine arts and the various Adobe Creative Suite programs -- and still think of myself as faking my way through this with zero qualifications, only getting jobs because the employer was too foolish or stingy to hire a "real" designer.

I know it's probably a terrible idea (see, there I go again), but I'm strongly tempted, next time I land a job interview, to either show up drunk* ; or to tell myself that since I won't get the job anyway, to just treat it as a rehearsal in which nothing I say or do really matters; and see if that can simulate normal human levels of confidence.


*Based on past experience, Drunk Me only registers as noticeably drunk to myself. People who've seen me at parties, please correct me if I'm wrong.

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[sovay]

I mean, I can look back and reason that I've illustrated three books, spent three years as the in-house graphic designer for a small company, and done freelance illustration/layout work for literally two decades, plus I do have actual recorded training in fine arts and the various Adobe Creative Suite programs

I didn't know you'd illustrated three books. May I ask which ones?

[moon_custafer]

Well, two were really just glorified government pamphlets, and I'm not that wild about the illustrations,* looking back, but this year ChiZine rereleased a book Jason Taniguchi did ten years ago, and commissioned me to do some additional illustrations in the style of the cover I did for the original edition.

* I didn't get along well with the author, either, and there was no editor to mediate between us. I do have kind of a funny story about using my photo on the back cover as evidence of age and ID when a waitress tried to kick me out of a pub where I wasn't even trying to order alcohol.

[sovay]

this year ChiZine rereleased a book Jason Taniguchi did ten years ago, and commissioned me to do some additional illustrations in the style of the cover I did for the original edition.

That's really cool!

[moon_custafer]

Update -- I've got a phone interview tomorrow. It's for a "desktop publisher" position, which, upon reading more closely, seems to mean they want someone who can do layout *and* answer the phone and be a general dogsbody. Also, as far as I can tell from their website, they're a company that exists to sell salesmanship training courses to other companies. I think it will be easy to not care if I get this job.