Angsty Over Different Things, One of Them Pretty Shallow

[moon_custafer]

Possible TW -- dead cat (not mine) I found a dead kitten on the way to work today, probably a feral. It was lying in the snow, and I knew at once it must be dead, but I touched it in the hopes it was only sleeping. It was cold and rigid under its fur. I realized after I moved on it had probably died from being hit by a car, rather than from the cold -- the last couple of days were comparatively mild, whereas I found it near a street corner, and it was a black kitten that wouldn't have been very visible to drivers in dim light. I was relieved that it wasn't still there when I passed by after work, whether a human took it away or a scavenger did, I don't know. I can't tell Andrew because I don't want to bring him down. I feel like it bothers me more because it looked like a cat I'd been imagining in my mind for the past few months; I feel like my imaginary creature came to life and was immediately crushed by reality, even though that doesn't make any sense and is making it all about me.

The second, stupid thing is that I posted a comment on a discussion about makeup last night in which I mentioned that I like to use lipstick as eyeshadow, and got an angry reply that this is why these discussions are a bad idea, don't I know that lipstick is covered with germs and isn't formulated the same as eyeshadow so it's totally unsafe and irresponsible to suggest what I did. All probably correct (I didn't consider different formulations; and I figure as long as I don't share lipstick with others I can put my own germs on any part of my own face without too much risk), and now I want to grovel and apologize for my blunder, but I don't know how to phrase it so I don't sound sarcastic and make it worse.

Comments

[grrlpup]

Using lipstick as eye shadow is a wonderful trick, especially for people like me who don't have any makeup other than lipstick. I also use it as blush. (Which makes it sound like I just cover my entire face in lipstick, hee.) It brings everything together. I go from looking like a person with only lipstick on to a person with a subtly dressed-up face.

And I don't get it in my eye or anything, so I don't see how germs would matter. Sanguinity hopes you will feel better if I disclose that she still occasionally puts on eyeliner and mascara that she's had since high school in the 1980s.

[leave-harmony.livejournal.com]

Aw, the poor little baby :(
The wild bunnies we have around here turn up dead sometimes, usually because of cars. I'd be catatonic for weeks if I ever found a dead cat :(

Hmm I hardly ever wear makeup. One of the few times I did, though (the formal), I used glittery blue lipstick for eyeshadow. Well. I went a little nuts with it, actually, trailing glitter all the way up to the eyebrows. But apart from it being a bitch to get off afterwards, I didn't notice any ill effects...technically -all- makeup ends up as little petri dishes festering with disease over time, so you'd be in worse risk of trouble using very old eyeshadow after a period of disuse than you would using regular lipstick, I think.
I remember reading something years ago about old makeup causing infections that fucked some girl's eyes right up, but god knows where that was. Probably one of my cousin's old Cosmos.